For today, i had controlled myself from cursing. And I manage to do that. Alhamdulillah.
In control my anger, I didn't do anything for it because I can get easily mad when I'm really pissed off with some sensitive issues - my family, my cleverness, anything wrong that i didn't do, and I think no more else other than those reasons.
I also didn't get any intention to get jealous with you if you hangout with some other guys, gedik-ing or anything else. Because I don't want to make you feel like you are being control.
p/s : i'm sorry if i manage to make you feel like you're being controlled, been jealous and a medium for me to release my anger. because i'm not perfect too. i do mistakes and its a lot.
i do really need you to guide me to become a better person. stop punish me with these feeling anymore because it is really hurts.
Straight from my heart,